Tag: poetry

D-Day

Today is the Day of Truth
I vowed to be True to Myself
But I have done nought except let Me down
Dare I say No More
Dare I tell you to Fuck Off

Today is the Day I teach you how to treat me
Keep your Lies in your Purse
I will not corrupt my Soul with your Untruths
Your curses are nought but a reflection of You
You Fool me No More

Today is the Day I am Free of you
Your words have an Effect on me No More
I See you, all of you, in a way your Minions do not
They will do your bidding, of that I am Sure
But not me, No More shall I let Me down

Today, I tell you to Fuck Off.

~ s.s.k.s

Raindrops

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Sipping hot tea by the fire, watching raindrops
leave trails on the windowpane;
There she was, walking idly in the rain,
strolling along, not a care in the world.

Here and there they rush around, hunched over to
protect themselves from the icy onslaught;
And there she was, enjoying the feel of cool rain on warm skin,
sticking her tongue out to taste the sky.

The streets are dotted with umbrellas, both young and old
decked out in vibrant and colorful raincoats;
But she, such a silly girl, had want of neither,
lauging instead at the quizzical stares of passersby.

It is warm and dry by the fire, safe and sound
wrapped up in a blanket, so afraid to catch a chill;
She was thoroughly soaked, her clothes sticking to every curve,
leaving so little to the imagination of twisted minds.

She stares out at the throng, all hurrying to some place new,
thinking about the girl she once was;
She skipped in the rain, splashing puddles all the way home,
dreaming of love, romance and Paris.

~ s.s.k.s

Progress

one step forward
two steps backwards
two steps forward
one step backwards

on and on spinning the wheel
round and round the wheels go

so much movement
too much inertia
so much ability
too much exhaustion

on and on spinning the wheel
round and round the wheels go

~ s.s.k.s.

Farewell (Jan 2007)

If we never meet again,

If today is indeed farewell,

Know that you have touched

My life in a special way.

Every once in a while, we need someone

To free us from self-imposed imprisonment.

Thank you, dear friend, for you have touched

That cord and roused me from sleep.

If today is indeed farewell,

Be safe then, dear friend.

And may the waves deliver you

Unto the shores of your desires.

~ s.s.k.s

Love Maze (Nov 2002)

Crouching in every corner, Disillusionment

Craftily weaves its web of Deceit.

Every turn made by the naive optimist

Reveals treachery yet again.

At each turn,

Anticipation pounds through my veins;

My heart swells with faith and desire.

But each time

I collide full force into

The dark wall of Betrayal.

At each turn,

Expectations build themselves high;

The promise of the perfect love.

But each time

I plunge headlong into

The black abyss of Uncertainty.

I see not the coy smile of Disillusionment

My eyes, blinded by Hopelessness

My heart led astray by Lies and False Promises

Love’s Allies fool me yet again.

~ s.s.k.s

Loss (Dec 1998)

I thought you were gone forever,

I had hoped that I had moved on

To a better life, a brighter tomorrow;

Instead, I have allowed myself to be sucked

Deeper into this abyss of loneliness.

It was never meant to be – our love;

No, not that I didn’t love you enough

No, not that you didn’t love me enough

Some things are just not meant to be

Too brittle to survive scorn and jealousy.

There is a reason why farewells were bid

One day we will know why.

I wish I could cry for you, for me

The lost souls and broken hearts

But tears come not, only an emptiness that engulfs.

I wish I could have seen it coming

But then, I never thought I’d lose you

Together forever was how I thought it’ll be

Alas, Fate thought otherwise.

And now, I have learnt that nothing lasts forever.

Every morning I wake up hoping to forget you

Every night I go to sleep hoping to find you again

But in this world of cheats and liars, who knows?

Now I’m left repeating my woes endlessly

To those who do not care.

How do I break free of these bonds of hopelessness?

Dare I hope to find someone as special as you, again ?

Will it be easier to remain closed up to the world

Wrapped tightly in this blanket of ennui?

Or shall I exchange this illusion of security for another?

~ s.s.k.s

Silent Plea (Jan 1998)

So many nights, passed in silence

I have yet to shed a single tear

Foolish — what a fool — to think I mustn’t

I am human, you know, if not humane

I do feel, I do ache, like the rest of you

But all I’ve been feeling lately is stoned

Silently screaming, pleading with you

But you, you do not hear me killing me

I wait for the tears to come

But they do not

I wait for the answers to my questions

But I know they will never come

My mind’s all messed up

Are you out there, watching?

Do you know how I feel?

Do I see you standing against that wall, there?

Or is it just me, a figment of my imagination?

A silent plea of help, I wish to be heard

I wish to heal, feeling of healing I do not feel

I know I cannot nor ever will, for no one knows

A burden shared, a burden halved

But who will share, I have not allowed

I miss you all too much — will you come back for me?

Or have I already walked right past you?

I shield myself from all of them

A folly, inevitably

I hurt too much to care

No one knows, I wish someone did

Why won’t the tears come? Why won’t the anger pass?

Why can’t I mend this deceivingly protective,

Thick, brittle shell that now lies broken at my feet?

Why can’t I undo the done? Why can’t I unknow the known?

Why can’t I tell and heal? But who will listen? Will you?

A silent plea, that is all it is

You think a smile is enough a sign

But what lies beneath the face so thick

The pain you cannot feel

The tears you cannot see

The heart you cannot touch

Standing on the edge, looking down

The abyss, dark and inviting, awaits me

I’m getting tired of standing up here, so high, all alone

I will fall soon, either one way or the other

Help me please, before I fall

I beg you, with all that I have

Nothing more, but that single thread of sanity

A silent plea, deny it not.

~ s.s.k.s