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04 - Paris_City_Tour_Day2 (25)

Sipping hot tea by the fire, watching raindrops
leave trails on the windowpane;
There she was, walking idly in the rain,
strolling along, not a care in the world.

Here and there they rush around, hunched over to
protect themselves from the icy onslaught;
And there she was, enjoying the feel of cool rain on warm skin,
sticking her tongue out to taste the sky.

The streets are dotted with umbrellas, both young and old
decked out in vibrant and colorful raincoats;
But she, such a silly girl, had want of neither,
lauging instead at the quizzical stares of passersby.

It is warm and dry by the fire, safe and sound
wrapped up in a blanket, so afraid to catch a chill;
She was thoroughly soaked, her clothes sticking to every curve,
leaving so little to the imagination of twisted minds.

She stares out at the throng, all hurrying to some place new,
thinking about the girl she once was;
She skipped in the rain, splashing puddles all the way home,
dreaming of love, romance and Paris.

© Sharon Kaur-Schuelke

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Fool I Am

Fool that I am, now I finally know
To think that I could find another you
Fate mocks me
Time reopens the wound so deep
Reality fades away
The memories rejuvenated
The black cloud descends, lusting to quench its thirst
The pain floods me, wrenching apart my soul
Broken and torn, yet you do not care to spare
That tiny breath of life that is left in me
Go away, leave me alone
For though I loved you once, I love you no more
No longer a memory I yearn to relive
But a nightmare I wish to forget
This is meant to be, I know it now
It is time to let go.

© Sharon Kaur-Schuelke

I Believe I’ll Find You Again (Nov 1997)

You made my heart skip beats.
You made me smile, made me laugh,
You made me blush just by looking at me,
You made me do stupid things just to get your attention.
You brought meaning and joy into my life.
Just being with you was enough to light up my day.

You were always there when I needed you.
I’m sorry I can’t be there for you now,
When you need me so much.
You always gave me the strength and courage
I needed during those hard times.
I’m sorry I can’t be there with you now
When you need all the strength and courage in the world.
But, I believe I’ll find you again…

You were there for me till the very end –
Like my guardian angel God-sent from above –
When I thought I had reached the end of the world.
I’m sorry I can’t be there for you now,
When you have reached the end of your world.
I need to believe that I’ll find you again.

You gave me hope,
You made me believe in myself and in the impossible,
You thought me how to look at things the brighter way.
I’m sorry I can’t do all these things for you.
But, I believe I’ll find you again…

I’m not sorry I ever met you,
I can never thank God enough for letting you into my life.
You thought me so many things,
You made me the strong person I am now,
I just wish it could have lasted longer.
I need to believe that I’ll find you again.

I will miss you dearly,
I will miss you endlessly,
I’ll be lonely without you
But I know the love we shared,
Will see me through the hard times that aren’t too far off.
I just wish I could take care of you,
The way you took care of me.
I only wish you didn’t have to go.
It’s too soon.
But, I believe I’ll find you again…

I want to see you again,
To feel your arms around me again,
To feel the shower of your kisses
That I know I will never feel ever again.
I need to believe that I’ll find you again.

© Sharon Kaur-Schuelke

Silent Plea (Jan 1998)

So many nights, passed in silence
I have yet to shed a single tear
Foolish — what a fool — to think I mustn’t
I am human, you know, if not humane
I do feel, I do ache, like the rest of you
But all I’ve been feeling lately is stoned
Silently screaming, pleading with you
But you, you do not hear me killing me
I wait for the tears to come
But they do not
I wait for the answers to my questions
But I know they will never come
My mind’s all messed up
Are you out there, watching?
Do you know how I feel?
Do I see you standing against that wall, there?
Or is it just me, a figment of my imagination?
A silent plea of help, I wish to be heard
I wish to heal, feeling of healing I do not feel
I know I cannot nor ever will, for no one knows
A burden shared, a burden halved
But who will share, I have not allowed
I miss you all too much — will you come back for me?
Or have I already walked right past you?
I shield myself from all of them
A folly, inevitably
I hurt too much to care
No one knows, I wish someone did
Why won’t the tears come? Why won’t the anger pass?
Why can’t I mend this deceivingly protective,
Thick, brittle shell that now lies broken at my feet?
Why can’t I undo the done? Why can’t I unknow the known?
Why can’t I tell and heal? But who will listen? Will you?
A silent plea, that is all it is
You think a smile is enough a sign
But what lies beneath the face so thick
The pain you cannot feel
The tears you cannot see
The heart you cannot touch
Standing on the edge, looking down
The abyss, dark and inviting, awaits me
I’m getting tired of standing up here, so high, all alone
I will fall soon, either one way or the other
Help me please, before I fall
I beg you, with all that I have
Nothing more, but that single thread of sanity
A silent plea, deny it not.

© Sharon Kaur-Schuelke